My insecurity. Pile on top an unrealistic amount of stress, half of which isn't even my own stress (maybe I should qualify that, i've been taking on other peoples stress), and a lack of caffeine in my diet you end up with a bloated mass of hysterical me.

I need some therapy or something.

Tomorrow.

One of my babies is turning 3 (officially. Though to her, she's 3 when she has a party.)

On the way home from the grocery store, twenty minutes ago, she opened the car door nearest her, and I nearly had a heart attack. Fortunately a multi-colored bouncy ball was the only real casualty of the incident, but let's just say I started drinking as soon as we made it home. If nerves could be shot, mine would be.

I don't know why I'm writing about this, probably because it makes me feel less terrible for having forgotten to lock the car doors. Like if I admit it, it's not as bad. weird. I think I do that a lot. Not here, but in real life I mean. 

Oh yeah, Kara was totally born on Drew and Anicia's wedding day. I was pissed that we were missing their wedding! haha! i'm crazy when i have babies.

I think I'm going to do this:

http://www.slonightwriters.org/

I found out about it yesterday, and apparently Wyatt really wants me to do it too because he won't stop talking about it. Ha! he loves me so much. Soooooo, yeah. maybe i'll come up with something good!

Thanks Bethany

if i weren't internet retarded i would post the picture too, be that as it may- I will probably buy this.

http://shelf-life.ew.com/2009/07/15/twilight-comic-book-manga/

ugh. so i have all this stress in my shoulders, but i'm not sure why. what have i been stressing about? Nothing really. the heat, maybe? I hate the heat. I can handle 80ish. you go hotter than that and i fall apart. 

doing Alice In Wonderland for Kara's birthday. It's going to be magical. i'm so excited!!!! I will post pictures and stuff. I'm working on the invites now, and they will (hopefully) be picture worthy. I've never really done a big party for my kids (pointless, since they're too young to remember, and too young to have friends beyond their immediate family), but with Kara, she asked to have an Alice tea party. Really, when is the next time one of my kids is going to pick something crazy like that? probably never. i've resigned myself to the fact that the next 8-10 birthday years are going to be princess themed. and after that they'll just want me to hand out money and drive their friends to laser tag (not that I'll be complaining when that time does come). oh to be a preteen....... worst years of my life.

I am so crabby today. Yesterday I got a ton of stuff done, and was exhausted. I went to bed at 9! This morning has barely started and I already want to slap someone. 

I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed. Tomorrow we're taking the girls to the aquarium for paisleys birthday. always fun. today I have to get one of my tires patched, go to the grocery store, deal with the idiots at my bank, maybe start swim lessons, and pack up supplies for tomorrow. Oh, also, finish the laundry, and clean the bedrooms.

here's what I'd rather do: Find a way for my children to get along, never hear them scream at each other again. Make a tasty, healthy lunch for the four of us. walk to the park. sit on the computer and finish my work. take a nap. 

enough complaining. 

I cut adelaide's hair last night, and it looks cute. I had to take off several inches because it was SO bad, but it's super cute and really curly right now. she wants to grow it out like rapunzel. So cute!